Ups and downs..

8 days post op the itching has gone now which is good as it got on my nerve´s and sleeping is a lot easier.Been keeping everything clean as possible, had the first wet shave a couple of days ago felt really good after 2 weeks of not shaving.

One minute your up the next you are down, is this a loosing battle ? Is it all worth it ? These are some of the thought´s going on in my head at the moment.Strange as yesterday it was all positive ,it is a  psychological rollercoaster. 

I much prefer thinking about what im going to do at the weekend or whether my team is going to win tonight than whats my head going to look like after all this..

Bottom line is it couldn´t look worse so for the down´s the answer is pull yourself together stop feeling sorry yourself and bloody get on with things. As for the ups there is something to hold on and hope for . 

Again for years none of this was ever a issue only a  inconvenience,now that the ball has started rolling it has obviously got more into my head so im thinking about it a lot more than i ever had before, which is not a good thing.

I hate wimps and moaner´s but most of all people who dont try those that always think that life has given them a rough ride, why didnt i get that or how come you did? I totally believe in hard work pays off, so with my repair  this wont be easy and i know im not going to be this wonderful before and after picture deep down i wish i was i really do, that is not going to happen i have to wright this down so i understand that myself and come to terms with it.But i am going to look a hell of a lot better and for that i am truly grateful..