The original idea for my blog was to inform people about my hair repair but its such a slow process that as you can imagine there are a lot of not much going on moments . You have a look every now and then to see any growth. Its hard to tell i keep my hair pretty short but after 6 months you can definatly see in places something going on. Luckily well not sure if its luck but its all taking part at the back of my head so im not constantly looking in the mirror to see whats occuring .
Blog world is a hell of lot different than the real one, like the forum which i had mentioned earlier its almost a place to go and hide but do it in a way to really open up to show anyone who is curious what you think and how you feel without anyone knowing who you are, bar a few. When i think about what i can discuss here compared to the real world its almost like living in a parallel universe.Openly talking about being the victim of a horrid mistake , mine for voluntery misjudgement and the Doctor who should of known better.
This in the real world i never discuss, i mean do you think i sit there in the pub and rant and rave about getting my head sown on backwards and talking about sticking hair from my beard onto the top of my head. My mates would think what the fuck his gone totally nuts. Or sitting there commending someones 6000 graft fue and talking about 1000 in the bank, no absouletly not.
I sometimes wonder who this Zionaxel actually is, i have discussed about the online persona the silly username which people develop . For me Zionaxel is the guy who made a mistake at the age of 26 who cant turn the clock back but who is going through a process of being able to openly discuss what had happened to me. Something in the real world i cannot and wont do. If i do its only with people who got to know me as Zionaxel, then they meet the real me. Not much different but very level headed and just a normal working guy.
The one thing that Zionaxel and me have in common is we certainly dont feel sorry for ourselves.Having a bad hairtransplant compared to someone who has terminal cancer or finding out your kid has Leukemia is nothing, ok its not nice but its not enough of a reason for it to screw your life up and constantly feel that things could of been so much better, IF.
No i dont have a split personality and Zionaxel is me but if i hadnt become a silly username on a website for one this repair would of never of started and two i wouldnt of started a blog. Well maybe it would of been about Carp fishing and how many of them are there.
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